Am I A Bad Person?

In life we have many choices. For we can either choose to live doing good or wrong. We can either love others or neglect them. We can either choose life or choose death. Such as Eve in the Garden of Eden. She had the choice to choose the tree of life which is Christ or that which bring her world pleasures (knowledge of good and evil) For in our hearts we have a void that we are constantly trying to fill. We fill it with things of the world : money, success, the amount of friends we have, doing things that give us a temporary high then leaving us empty afterwards, or even finding our worth in the approval of others. We go on a “pursuit of happiness” when we miss the point. Our life is not to seek happiness, our life is to be used for a purpose in which happiness will trail behind. Our life is not to seek for things outside of ourselves, for all that we long for is within us through recieving Jesus Christ.

For a part of my life growing up, I was: mean, hurtful, rude, greedy, self-centered, decietful, a liar, a cheater and overall a person heading down the wrong path. I had no respect for those who weren’t my friends and truthfully had no respect for myself. Although I was doing what those around me were doing, I always felt that there was more to life. I had no true love for others, I had no peace within myself and I had no sense of security for what my future held. I was on a path which seemed normal as those around me were doing the same things. But why did I feel that there was more to life then this? Why did I have this feeling of emptiness that nothing else seemed to satsify?

All that I was trying to fill my life with were things that brought no eternal purpose, that never satisfied me but ultimately left me longing for more. I came to see that I could have a life full of fullness, joy, happiness and a love for others that goes beyond my own understanding. But that life would cost me the life I was living now; the things I did, the way I acted and ultimately the people I surrounded myself with. I knew this life was going to bring me to leave that comfortable, yet unsatisfying life to step towards a better one. But it wouldn’t be easy. As I step foreward, change after change. I went through hard times of letting go of the person I once was, the person I knew so well but no longer wanted to be associated with. For that person brought no happiness, but was a cover for all my unhappiness and longing to be accepted and fit in.

It went from me trying to see how close I could get to the line of good and bad, to how close I can get to be who I was made to be.It is through my love for Jesus that I have been redeemed from who I was and given true life. By accepting Christ, I also took on His values in which I stand on. I now do not do the wrong that I did before because  I see the beauty of life in all aspect. For Jesus did not come to take away the enjoyment of life, the joy and excitment but He came to bring the fullness of all those things. He came to give us the best life we can possibly have.240309330087054285_zZQ66nly_c

“The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full.” John 10:10

For Jesus is the tree of life, He is the source of eternal life. If choose Him, we become apart of His beautiful life. If we choose Him rather than the world, we will no longer be dying along with it. But if we do not choose the life He is offering, we choose death, just as Adam and Eve did in the garden. They choose life without the King. 

“Then Jesus told His followers, ‘if people want to follow me, they must give up the things they want. They must be willing even to give up their lives to follow me. Those who want to save their lives will give up true life and those who give up their lives for me will have true life. It is worthless to have the whole world if they lose their souls. They could never pay enough to buy back their souls’ ” Matthew 16:24-26

I have come to see that although there is much wrong in this world, there is also so much goodness and we no longer have to submit to who we are or used to be. Through coming to Jesus, we will be forgiven. For there is no sin to big that the Lord will not forgive us from.  We must be faithful and persever through these changes to continue to “live by His Spirit, then we will not do what our sinful selves want” Galatians 5:6

May you begin to seek a better life, to be a better person and to live true life; moving towards an eternal destiny, realizing your purpose here on earth is to bring His life! You have so much potential to influence others and change yourself through the power of Christ.

“I have been crucified with Christ; and it is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me; and the life which I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave Himself up for me.” Galations 2:20


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